Footprints
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
Hope that it teaches us a lesson on life... one way or another.
Below the article is a song
A video which reflects how one can leave a mark in another's life
Enjoy.
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"Some people have thousands of reason why they cannot do what they want to do, when all they need is one reason why they can"
Author: Unknown
Twenty years ago, i drive a taxi for a living. When i arrived at 2.30AM, the building was dark except for a single light in a ground floor window.
Under such circumstances, most driver would just honk once or twice, wait a minute, and then drive away. But i have seen too many improverished people who depend on taxis as their only mean of transportation. Unless a situation smelled of danger, i always went to a door.
"This passenger might be someone who needs my assistance." I reasoned to myself.
So i walked to the door and knocked.
"Just a minute..." answered a frail elderly voice
I heard something being dragged across the floor. After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 80's stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like someone out of a 1940's movie. By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as it no one has lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered in sheets. There were no clocks on the wall, no knicknacks or utensils on the counter. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glasswares.
"Would you carry my bag out to the car?" she asked.
I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the old lady. She took my arm and we walked slowly towards the curb. She kept thanking me for my kindness.
"Its nothing," I told her. "I just try to treat my passengers the way i would want my mother to be treated"
"Oh you are such a good boy" she said.
When we got in a cab, she gave me an address, then she asked "Could you drive through town?"
"Its not the shortest way" I answered quickly.
"Oh I don't mind," she said. "I am in no hurry. I'm on my way to a hospice"
I looked in the rear view mirror. Her eyes were glistening.
"I don't have any family left" she continued. "The doctors says i don't have very long"
I quietly reach over and shut off the meter "what route would you like me to take?" I asked.
For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator. We drove through the neighbourhood where she and her husband had once lived when they were newlyweds. Sometimes she'd ask me to slow down in front of a particular building or corner and would sit stare into darkness, saying nothing.
As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said "I'm tired, lets go now"
We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a small building like a convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico. Two orderlies came out to the cab as son as we pulled up.
They were solicitious and intent, watching her every move, they must have been expecting her.
i opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The old lady was already seated in a wheelchair.
"How much do i owe you?" she asked, reaching into her purse.
"Nothing" I said.
"You have to make a living" she answered.
"There are other passengers" I responded.
Almost without thinking, i bent over and gave her a hug. She held on to me tightly.
"You gave an old woman a little moment of joy" she said. "Thank you"
I squeezed her hand, then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me a door shut. It was the close of the closing of a life. I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of the day i could hardly talk. What if the old lady had gotten an angry driver? Or one who was impatient to end his shift? What if i had refuse to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?
I don't think i have done anything noble, but i also think i have never done anything more important in my life. We're conditioned to think that our lives revolves around great moments. But great moments often catches us unaware, beautifully wrapped in what others consider a small one.
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People may not exactly remember what you did, or what you said.
But they will always remember how you made them feel
Leona Lewis - Footprints In The Sand
You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the way
Then I heared you say
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow
And despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times that I've been so afriad
And just when I
Have thought I'd lost my way
You give me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow
And despair
And I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
When I'm weary
Well I know you'll be there
And that I can feel you
When you say
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sadness and despair
Oh, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
The tears dropped on -:==============================:-
Sunday, June 29, 2008...
Miranda
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
when *suck in deep breath*
Mardina-Miranda-Di-Dina-Nandini-Damaru-MandaiZoo-Dinasaur-D'Countess-Aziz
took her first breath
i wasn't there for her
becos i wasn't even in the world yet
but 17 years later i first met her on tt very same date
she made me feel like a fren
4 years
its been 4 years since we known each other
she made me feel like a good fren
the fun and laughter
the quarrels and disagreement
the secrets and scandal
she made me feel like a best fren
21 years of life
4 years of frenship
and countless years ahead
2008 is not a good year for u and i
but we are still there for each other aint it?
dun forget, we are each other's middle finger >=D
and also in a way, we are 'connected' via AJ and BP
thou now i am RM...
good luck to both of us!
last but not lest
Happy 21st Birthday Dina!
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anyway, after tt load of testimony
here are description of tt short outing we had
which somehow, wiwi interpret it as a "party" =P
first, the three of us met up after my work
proceed to the long-time no see Amirah
ordered the usual set meals
which btw, the standard has increased exponentially
Amirah was 8/10
now it is 9/10!
better food
better service
same price!
if the environment improve any further
like nicer music, more comfy outdoor chairs and tables
that place is worth a 10/10
Di had the mix kebab (as usual)
i had the mix grilled seafood (unusual)
and it was fantastic
wida, who, had, PIZZA, somewhere, else
was complainning lah
"omg lah, so nice! i regret eating just now"
lol, well, wi, too bad!
after dinner, we went to esplanade, cam whore abit
chat abit, ate some macadamia ice cream
den its home sweet home
short outing!
haha, i cant afford anymore long long happening alrdy...
anyway, below are some of the pictures we took tt day
and this, is my present to Di
The tears dropped on -:==============================:-
Saturday, June 28, 2008...
Since
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
it has been 4 months since then
when will it end?
no one knows
the pressure increases day by day
i can only swallow
some people are born on a bed of rose
from time to time when they are pricked
they says that their life is a bed of rose full of thorn
i used to be one of those
until now i realised how delusional that is
if i have to choose a flower to describe my bed now
i think it is safe of me to say its a bed of Ivy
the thorn pricks my skin and make me bleed
the poison instrude my body and cause me pain
the creeper strangled my chest and cease my breath
things are not in my favour now
and ironically...
one of my favour quote is shooting me back
"when everyone else but you have a problem
look in the mirror
you may be the problem"
i looked into every mirror there is
and i saw some problems
but how does it contributes to what i am going through?
i have changed
i probably lost alot of friends for the past period
do they care?
from what i gather; not really
do i care?
yes i do...
at lest i used to
i did not make any true friends anywhere else
people wearing mask all over the place
people holding up a shield around themselves
who do i have?
what do i have?
my parents?
hah...
i have them...
but...
heh...
i can only sigh in exasperation...
i am losing myself
i am losing faith
i am losing alot of things
soon i may jolly well be losing what holds my sanity...
The tears dropped on -:==============================:-
Thursday, June 19, 2008...
Conversing
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
lex: "here here touch here"
nam: "where? touch where? i cannot see"
lex: "here! follow my finger"
nam: "i cant see! where is ur finger!?!"
lex: "HERE!!! touch! touch here!"
nam: "i cant see!! i dunno where to touch!"
lex: "hurry just touch! follow my finger! u see my finger touching!"
nam: "i still cannot see! hurry up lah u ah! i cant see!"
lex: "gimme ur finger i help u touch!"
nam: "oh~ hm~~~ nice~"
Scene - at tekong in viper
LTA: hey ky, where is khatik?
REC: khatib? u dunno? somewhere around yishun ah sir
LTA: ?!?!?! yishun? khatik suppose to be at tekong now rite!
REC: ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! wad?
Lex: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Scene - compass point music shop
Lex: should i buy?
Fil: should u buy?
Lex: thats wad i asked
Fil: thats wad i asked
Lex: .... so should i buy?
Fil: OMG!!! ballad pilot pianorette (or wadever it is)
Lex: ... forget it...
The tears dropped on -:==============================:-
Friday, June 13, 2008...
Question
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
am i worried?
will everything be ok?
should i pretend nothing is wrong?
will i continue to keep quiet?
who are my real frens?
is there going to be anybody for me?
what am i doing here?
when will it end?
what am i good for?
how can people say this but meant that?
am i worth it?
where would i look for a retreat?
should i voice out?
stress
worries
fatigue
masquerade
laughing with only sadness
sleeping but unable to rest
feasting yet not eating
playing however cant enjoy
...
The tears dropped on -:==============================:-
Sunday, June 08, 2008...
Religion
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
i am a Free-thinker
some people called me an Atheist
and gets angry for no apparent
what i said was "i don't pray"
what i ALSO said was "i am a Free-thinker"
what i did NOT said is "i am an Atheist"
what i DEFINITELY DID NOT said is "i hate god"
certain people just have to assume
and starts getting sophistry with my words
i strongly believe there is a very THICK line between "Atheist" and "Free-Thinker"
to some people
"Atheist" holds no offense
it simply means the same as "Free-Thinker"
people who simply dun believe
to some other people
"Atheist" insultingly means "Anti-Religion"
and christians/catholics seems to take this the hardest way
i don't blame them
hence i never call myself an Atheist
to another mindset of people!
"Free-Thinker" is just as offensive as pig is to muslim!
ok fine... fair enough
they have their own ways of seeing things
but hey
my way of seeing things is as below
"Atheist" means people who denies the existence of god
"Free-Thinker" are people who believes freely
people who take a step back and look at religions in different angles
we don't deny
we don't hate
get this straight
i am a Free-Thinker in my own definition
yes i told a lot of u before that i don't believe in god
but i do not anti religions
i do not hate god
if you don't like it and starts going haywire
think carefully of ur own action
is that how ur religion teaches u?
even as i know all about the "spread the words"
and "praise the lord"
or "open ur heart and let god in"
but really... seriously... don't force
don't come infront of me and say
"u will burn in hell for the god that we fear will not save u from ur sin"
i find that very rude, offensive, and highly inconvincing
full stop
The tears dropped on -:==============================:-
Monday, June 02, 2008...