unrest
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
in this alcove
the air con are blasting like the artic
my bones are aching
my feet are hurting
i wanna leave this place and go some where warm
somewhere with my precious frens
an, the one who keep so quiet
cia, the one who laugh at me
DHS, the one who likes to ji siao me
hans, the one who cant take my self praises
meiyi, the one who likes to disown me
bamboo, the one who likes to call me gay
yun hui, the one who likes to beat me
my frens, the ones who keep me warm =)
see you soon
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Friday, September 29, 2006...
bored
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
1. Never in my life have I:
* done something evil... yet ;D
2. The last person I kissed was:
* my 1 yr old neice, on her birthday =D small peck on her cheek
3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always manage to make me smile:
* obviously DHS
4. The high school I go to is:
* coral sec
5. When I'm nervous I:
* will studder
6. The last time I cried was:
* forgot, yrs ago
7. My hair:
* is golden strikes
8. When I was 5, I:
* am skinny
9. My Christmas last year:
* stayed at home slp
10. When I turn my head right, I see:
* a IBM colleague chatting on phone
11. I should be:
* visiting a doctor
12. When I Look Down I See:
* the floor?
13. The craziest recent event was:
* nth crazy... just a bday celebration
14. By this time next year:
* i'll be in NS i guess
15. I love:
* my frens and family
16. I have a hard time understanding:
* girls
17. one time at a family gathering:
* there isn't a family gathering in my family
18. You know I like you if:
* i blush while u are near
19. Take my advice:
* dun waste water, paper, food ...etc...etc...
20. My ideal breakfast is:
* dim sums
21. If you visit the place I grew up:
* u'll find me there
22. Soon I plan on visiting:
* the hospital
23. If you spend the night at my house:
* u'll be drunk
24. The world could do without:
* backstabbers
25. The most recent thing I bought myself is:
* snapple drink
26. My favourite brunette(s) is(are):
* ???
27. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds
* panda
28. Last night I:
* played games
29. My birthday is on:
* 4/12/1987
30. Tomorrow I am:
* coming back to the office
YOUR HOROSCOPE?
; a sentimental saggitarius
2. SiNGLE OR TAKEn?
; Single
3. iN LoVe?
; with myself, frens and family
4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERIOUSLY HURT BY THE PERSON YOU LOVED?
; hm... no
5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU TURNED SUiCiDAL?
; hm... to escape from some stuff
6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY aBt KiLLiNG YOURSELF?
; more like bringing a message to someone or some peoples
7. COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
; both! =D
8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY?
; cute idiots i kinda like cos they always have tt pure aura, smart ugly i oso like but not if they are evilicious
9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP WiTH YOUR BF/GF?
; no gf lah, any girls interested pls leave ur contact and name on my tag board =X
10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE USUALLY FROM..
; cia... wm... meiyi... jacke (my manager)
11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
; yep, cia, an, meiyi, yh
12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
; stone by the amphi theatre beside esplanade
13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
; i am usually cheerful, but i freaking bored now
14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE..
; smiles and laughter wherever we go or do... even simple things like walking
15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY iS BLUE?
; actually, we astronomers noe, its cos the sunlight brighten the lonosphere on earth, which is dark blue, close to black in color
16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
; well... not really considered
17.WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAiN? WITH LOVE???
; wad mistake i made? nv fell in love b4
18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?
; yes
19. DO YOU DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP WiTH YOU AFTER FEW DAYS?
; nah, if she does tt, she's not worth me doing anything
20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES WHAT YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW.
; cold (physically... but bored mentally)
21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELf?
; actually... no, i was just being clowny when i say i am cute/handsome/wadever
22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?
; yep yep
23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?
; er... no leh
24. MOTTO iN LiFE?
; never forgive never forget... but once a good fren, forever u will be
25. HAVE YOU EVER DOUBTED THAT SOMETiMES?
; nah
26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD FEELiNGS ABOUT A FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
; all feelings starts from friends for me, i not the kind tt will "love at first sight"
27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT?
; make her happy
28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT THiNGS iN YOUR LiFE?
; well... there are 3 Fs i find important... not fame... not F**K lah... its frens, family and fun =D
29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
; nah, unless i am very sick, i'll be wheezing
30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
; no, i wake a the slightest sound
31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
; hm... not much lah actually, bad sleeping habit
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Thursday, September 28, 2006...
happy bday to An and Jean
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
anyway, during the dinnering, we chat and joke ard, the sitting was split into 2 tables, jean jason hans and sk one table, me an cia dhs in another table, ordered quite alot of food oso, me as usual lah, din eat much, dhs as usual, eat too much =X
during eating, dhs suddenly suggest nxt wk go party world, they got 4 hrs free voucher due to the shopping at pure milk for an and jean bday... gotten an a cardigan and jean a skirt... hm... seems like tt skirt fits jean... tot cannot at first.. cos jean butt so big =X lol jkjk
after dinner, all go home liao, siew keng the only one take MRT, the rest all take bus, me take 168 go home sweet home~
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006...
birthdays and KTV
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
in order of wad took place:
Sara Bday 22nd September
well ok, from wad i noe, sara celebrated her bday twice, first is with her usual cliques on 19th tuesday, went for KFC i think, her second "celebration"... an extremely small one which i hardly consider a celebration actually... is at simei eastpoint sarpino pizza, on the 21st, the day jus before her bday, met azri there, wonder if he is working here as a part timer, or he is full timer there
anyway HAPPY BDAY SARA!!!! wish u forever hippie, and enjoy ur "slavery" with qamsia as the everything-oso-'oi sara help me' princess XD and really sry for the missing of bus that day... hope no one is pissed at that
PS: Xela sounds so not me =X but it sounds fun =D happy bday again Aras
David Bday 22nd September
haha, two frens same bday, but diff year, dav is 2 years older, now he is 21yr old liao.
went to his hse after work, was the first to reach there, the party is comencing in a function room just below his block, david ordered quite abit of food, but usual small appetite me is full after just one plate of bee hoon, party was quite fun, bz chatting with frens, took some pictures (will upload them after i get them) before i went home... grrrrrrr wanted to stay overnight, but i had something to do that nite and the sec day morning... heard that dhs and wei ming was drinking... ARGHHHHHH!!!! gets so high and slightly pissed that i missed the chance to join them T_T
before i change topic... HAPPY BDAY BIG HEAD!!! haha older by one year and turning 21 = more maturity and must quick quick get a GF to show us wor~
KTV with an, my, wm
was actually slping until wm msg me at bout 1am saying to go KTV later in the day, i said ok loh, had tot dhs and cia will be there oso, but they not there, so the 4 of us end up singing... and wm just die die dun wanna sing =P my voice sux and yet i solo like mad that day, trying to get wm to sing, but in the end he sang like... 2 songs nia, den ciao liao... and that two songs have to sing with him... if i go soft he go silent, if i go loud den he go soft -.-''' zzz
anyway... was a fun day, din noe that we can order alchohol at the same price as other drinks, so we ordered bourdon coke... WEEEEEEEEE bloody happy i get to drink again, muahahahahahhahaha
well thats all for the wk ba, and now is 1am liao... so... wanna say....
AINEE JIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND WISHING U AND I FOREVER BROTHER AND SISTER!!!!! u is my jie but nv treat me good before, always is i treat u good de, how can liddat? bleh bleh bleh :P :P :P
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Monday, September 25, 2006...
results
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
Database - B
Internet Security - B
XML - B
Comm Skill - B
Mobile App - C
Mobile App Project - C
GPA still quite low, but increased by alot ler, not going to announce to public, and dun bother asking, not going to say =D
btw, congrats to liting and tiffany =D soooo high wor!! and congrats to those who got good results and yet i din noe =)
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Thursday, September 21, 2006...
its hurts
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
but not to the extend i will go crippled
normal walking is ok...
but sudden sharp pain will run thru for no reason
and tt pain will last for sometime
zzZZzz
clinic said
"tendons are thorned, few wks needed to recover
dun run, dun jump, dun even try to walk fast"
having said that, they prescribe me with painkiller
and no bandages
thank god for tt, i dun wanna go work in bandages
went for BBQ with art.c today
he complained until like a wuss -.-'''
he complained how much i've slimmed
he complained how little i eat
he complained how long the bus waiting is
he complained how long the bus ride is
he complained how long the walk is
BLEH!!! but i'm ok with the complains
at lest he let me punch him =X
food was ok
din wanna eat
but Art.C kept pushing me food
now i am really over filled
and growing fat again
received two calls from dhs today, one from cia hse
big present for dav 0.0
headache with the bdays coming up >.<
good thing my bday is unnecessary
thanks to him, nine years ago
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Sunday, September 17, 2006...
happy & pissed
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
let ask this to everyone reading my blog.. does the fact tt i like to keep my nick unchange a problem? this is our conversation
**********
asshole: ei ah pei, u can change ur nick? look so lame, den so long liao nv change, wad u wanna hold the highest record for not changing nick issit?
me (still not angry but abit taken back): ha... i like to keep it tt way, see me old fashion or wad, but its me
asshole: wtf, not nice not nice, i dun like to see, change or i delete u
me (abit hot liao): its my nick wad, why u bother?
asshole: cos u in my contact
me (got smoke liao, but no fire yet): so?
asshole: sotong soya bean lah! just change ur fucking nick can?
me (caught fire): FUCK LAH WHO U THINK U ARE? ITS MY NICK! IF U DUN LIKE DEN DELETE ME
asshole: ... okok relax... i giving suggestion nia ma, why u so niao one, canot make it lah ur temper
me (atomic bomb dropped): *blocked and delete asshole off conatct*
**********
so tts our conversation... bloody pissed... he's someone i noe thru IRC...
ok forget the ugly happening...
so happy
pretty euphoria actually
nothing much happened
not like i won top lottery...
...thou i wish
not like my attachment pay raised to 1100...
...never gonna happen anyway
but its a small factor of simple pleasures in life
that results in my lighten mood
work was boring as usual
but the fun collegues and frens made me smile
lunch on friday was terrible experience + my feet incident
but the aftermath was hilarious
toking to everyone in the office was simple
but the jokes bring laughters
chatting with frens on internet is a daily routines
but the message brought warmth in the cold
going out with cia and dhs was nothing new
but it made me happy
things are simple
life is contented
not rich
not powerful
thats why i am happy
and now i am smiling to a better tml =D
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Saturday, September 16, 2006...
injured tendons
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
hurts when i stand
hurts when i walk
thanks to a numb skull driver
chinese physician said
"ur tendons are badly strained
i'll bandage it for the week
but if u are uncomfortable with the bandage
u can take it down on thursday"
today is thursday
it still hurts
but i going to take it down tonite anyway
so many birthdays coming up
so little capital on hands now
so many time to waste
so little things to do
yawnz~~
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Thursday, September 14, 2006...
tranquil mood
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
not sure why
a feeling of unease resides inside me
and all that disturbance haunts me till saturday
had a simple nice outing with a few frens
jo, meiyi and wei ming
had dinner, drank beverages
simple talks
sharing of work experiences
laughters echoed in the cafe
the next day; sunday
went out to meet my closest frens
cia, dhs, meiyi, wm and yh
had our usual pooling session
chat abit
jean left first
followed by meiyi
and finally wm
leaving me cia and dhs walking thru amk
browsing the shops
looking at shoes and clothes
two days past by quickly
they were extremely short
thou it was more den enuf to calm the chalky sea inside me
now i smile to work
looking forward to the coming wkends
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Monday, September 11, 2006...
Sins
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
Gluttony
Greed
Sloth
Anger
Envy
Pride
the seven sins for mankind
embedded into us with the very first breathe we got
men is a pandora box themselves
curiosity and temptation is all it takes to open the box
Lust
we all crave for sexual desires
not always
but maybe one point in life
some would merely fantasize
some would do physical actions
flirtation
seduction
stand your ground
be faithful
bear in mind of the dires end
the sin that brings broken heart
love your heart
betrayal of young couples
divorce of weds
invasion of alien bodies; AIDs HIVs
Gluttony
enjoy your food
yet do not gorged
curry
pasta
cheese
et cetera
we all have a favourite food
yet some is content with minuscule amount
while others is never sufficed
servings after servings
indigestion
obesity
the sin that brings discrimination
love your health
cholestorol bestow organs malfunction
oversize lowers self esteem
Greed
they have quotes for it
"men are never satisfied"
"money is never enough"
we always want, need, having
for more enjoyment
more more more!
wad men would do for greed
robbery
thievery
but wad greed will do to men
life ruined
conviction
the sin that brings desperation
love the things u have
settle for the present
think of ur future
more doesn't necessary means good
Sloth
dragging feet
lazing on the couch
couldn't care less
what needs little effort seems like a big deal
some gets slothy once in awhile
while there are those rather die in a fire
den move a single inch of muscle
nonchalant of happenings ard
troublesome to move
its tiring to walk
dilly
dally
the sin that brings frustration
love your ability
keep in mind, moving is good
have fun, have memories that involves more den just the sofa
Anger
so pissed of at this
damn irritated by that
now, who dun get angry?
when ur fren stood up on, u get angry
when ur spouse cheat on u, u get angry
burning sensation
when the fire gets to our head
unresponsible action happens
whether verbally
or practically
u hurt people
the sin that brings destruction
love your life
keep cool
smile
thats the best cure
Envy
jealousy is everywhere
people envy others for the things they have
women envy others for their beauty
men envy others for material matters
because perfection is wad they seek
they want themselves to be beautiful
they want themselves to be successful
resentment
spiteful
prejudice
the sin that brings ugliness
u are born for a reason
love yourself
there are asset in u that u may not know
dun compare
for comparison are only lowly actions
Pride
taking pride in things
the things u do
the things u have
the things u treasure
its an asset to have pride
yet
the deadliest of all sins
all u can think of is ur dignity
egoism
insolence
arrogance
the sin that brings evils
broken heart
discrimination
desperation
frustration
destruction
ugliness
the sin which has no cure
learn to love yourself, your frens, your loved ones
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Thursday, September 07, 2006...
bored
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
all that i can think of now is to go out with my frens
staying in this office makes me going crazy
been drinking the free mocha non stop everday
i miss my friends
i miss ah cia
i miss an an
i miss dhs
i miss hans
i miss meiyi
i miss wm
i miss jean
wanna call cia, but she's sick so better dun disturb
wanna call DHS since he work in pasir ris, near to where i am, but i bet he is busy, tired etc...
wanna call the rest but they work/study/stay so far from where i am now
the collegues i work with are fun ppl, but i still miss my friends >.<
all that is keeping me alive are the photos hans had send me in the past... been viewing them, and refreshing the memories to keep me going... i am really going crazy...
the pressure of being in the same area as my supervisor, yet i am doing NOTHING literally, virtually, practically is cracking me up
the day cia comes to work, is going to be a VERY happy day for me... haiz...
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Thursday, September 07, 2006...
the reason
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
people are forever aging
everyone are always changing
why cant people develope immunities to even the basic flu?
is there anyone who is voided completely of feelings?
people can look different, people can look the same
why do some two different personal resembles each other so much?
while doppelganger of u may not be the same u?
there are alot of things in this world people dun understand
heck i dun even understand myself!
there are some understanding that is unecessary
while some understanding, thou painful, is necessary
i understand they are my friends
thats why i gif with no condition
ask with no motive
accept willingly
and smile with a true heart
i understand u had liked him for years
thats why i let u go
u dunno that i liked u for as long as u like him
maybe longer
but resassured if u ever read this and find out
i will only wanna wish u find someone u really like
be happy
and of cos, u must wish me happy oso
otherwise
i *bite*
(^oo^)
yeah there are two girls in my life i really really like, yet two of them look upon me as a brother instead of a bf
maybe becos i am not brave enuf to admit to them
or maybe becos i am afraid to end up hurted... and be hurting
guess this kind of thing is not to be rushed
and i'll just have to wait for the rite one to come along >.<
but lucky for me, my rite friends came along =D
the seven of them are my "guiding stars"
the ursa major aka the big dipper
u guys noe who u are
hehe i know very corny
but bear with it, u noe me, i ocassionally likes to write stuff liddat, not emo, just poetic =P
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006...
3 days at IBM
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
things are going as mono pace as usual
bored is the only word i can find
yet small new stuff are coming up every now and den
first day of work was continuous waiting
badges and thinkpads were issued
got to know a few new frens
from sara is Eng Sheng Qamsia and QiQi
from my department is Derrick Rafiana and Yee Chin
under market deparment i am posted to the STG section
jacke is my IMCer
new guy who starts work the first day as we did
second day of work was even worse den the first
yee chin went to marriott hotel with audrey; our team leader
the remainning trio wandered ard, exploring new stuff
only to find several door we are unable to access to
over all, everything is quite ok, but i predict swarming of works in 1 or 2 weeks time
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006...
worried - sad but smile... =) look at the pics
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
take care...
...
=]
heres some photos to bring a smile
four of us
the first room that we slept in
me and cia... wheres my ring???
me and dhs
so sweet =D
me photographing, hans take over as "model"
its... D K 2HS!!! (Ding Koo 2HS)
guess who is that "bag of sand"
...
...
yep its dhs
ermm.... no comments... laugh or puke or wadever all u want
haaa no comments too
yawnzzzz
yeeek!!! too full!!! enuf!!!
hip hop me
hip hop cia
the three bros
cia and hans!!! i think its the first time in my photo collection to see them take together solo
me and that buddy again
(sing london bridge) KL bridge is chewing up~ chewing up~ chewing up~ KL bridge is chewing up~ lala lala~
its.. "Hans Alone", not "Home Alone"
dun i look like a hip hop dancer?
tiring long day
monkey VS panda climbing... monkey win of cos
want example of monkey?
heres 1...
2...
and 3!!!
*clap clap clap*
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Monday, September 04, 2006...
A Day In Life
Hope... Virtue... Solitude... Devotion... Sorrow... Love...
bird and ice by my side,
laughing through here,
and linger over there.
pace and halt in the fair,
gaze and view at the monitors bird necessitates,
409 for 19" viewsonic LCD,
happy as a flying BIRD... literally,
home sweet home as ice and bird goes, i lingered.
waited for an hour yet they already left,
i laugh bout it and went back home,
lighten mood yet swollen feet,
traipsed home using the same ticks i took to wait for the trio.
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